Got up this morning to go outside and play some basketball; I was up at 5.20am to ask the officer if he could put me outside with the guy in 69 cell because he's the only other person on the run that plays ball. We went outside and it was really nice; not too humid, and perfect conditions, so we ended up running 40 games, and I won 22-16. I came back inside and got started on my project "Crocnami"...You know, I honestly was half ass joking yesterday when I said I was going to write the baddest B-Movie ever but then I got to thinking about it and thought, well, I'll start typing it out...if the ideas are flowing I'll run with it and see where it goes. I'm fifteen pages in. I have the whole movie mapped out in my head and when I get to something I don't have any knowledge about (like oil rigs and earth quakes) and it makes no sense I say "It doesn't matter! It's a B-MOVIE! That's the beauty of it all. I can come up with the craziest scenario and have it make no sense...and get away with it. I figure if I write 5-10 pages a day I can have a first draft knocked out in no time. I don't really intend on writing a second draft...I'm just going to put it out there and see where it goes. If people like it enough then maybe I'll clean it up. Tighten it up a bit. At this point, it's a whole bunch of dialogue so I'm sure I could edit that. I find dialogue easier to write than anything else so it is what I rely on.
So, yesterday I was lectured by another inmate about something I wrote in my journals...It kind of ticked me off and I found it totally hypocritical, and amusing at the same time...I say amusing because I have literally ZERO interest in reading other people's blogs; maybe it's because I'm a bit snobbish when it comes to what I read, but I don't really care about gossip back here or even reading crap (I'm well aware that some would find my own writing crap). I'm not saying I'm any better...believe me, and judging what other people write doesn't interest me in the least. Plus, I get easily irritated when people embellish or straight up lie about things that have happend back here. I write from my own experiences; it's my world, through my eyes, and truth be told I do try to filter much of what I write. There are things that happen that I can't write about because it could get others in trouble, so I'm aware of that when I write. But I can honestly say that what I write is as accurate and truthful as I can make it...So, it is interesting to me, at least, that some people back here would get irritated by other inmates' blogs, or criticize or judge them. It is amusing that some dude back here even cares what I write about because I have little interest in what they write. Here, in the last couple of years there seems to be a lot of short term memory and a whole 'do as I say but not as I do' mentality. People are quick to point fingers, judge, etc. But whatever, I can't let it change or cause me to further censor myself. I have enough to concern myself with already.
Tomorrow is my section's off day so I'm trying to get as much possible done today so I can just kick back and relax, read, and listen to the radio...Maybe even work on CROCNAMI!
August 25th, 2014
A bright and early good morning to you. It is 7:54 A.M. as I write this and I'm in the music groove...I'm picking up an indie station out of Austin and it has been nothing but one good song after another. Elvis Costello, Florence And The Machine, St. Vincent...Definitely a good way to start the day. It is such a rarity to hear REALLY good music. I'm held hostage to Houston alternative and to be quite frank one can only hear Bush's ''Glisterine" so many times. There used to be a great indie station that was around for about 2 years and then it became a Christian alternative rock station...I suppose in Houston Jesus is bigger than the Beatles. Who knew? Actually, well...never mind.
So, last week I was listening to KPFT News. KPFT is an affiliate of the Pacifica Foundation...they are rooted in peace and liberalism. I enjoy the station because not all, but a good chunk of it speaks to my liberal leaning views. I don't listen to it as much as I used to because it seems to have gotten a little too left for me, but there are some programs that I really love on there. It was Thursday the 21st and they had some woman on there speaking for an anti death penalty group and she kind of ticked me off...First, almost nothing she was saying about death row conditions were true...I am a person who believes that if you're trying to bring attention to something and making a change, it has to be rooted in facts...If someone tried to investigate your claims and they turn out to be bullshit it only hurts the chances of trying to improve anything. This lady was saying that we don't regulary have running water...huh? They haven't shut our water off in ages. Hell, only recently when a dayroom on c-pod had a busted toilet that was erupting like ol' falthful, and there were rumors that they were going to shut the water off to fix it, they didn't. We haven't had any lack of water in quite some time. Another thing she said was that they weren't letting us get our recreation which is not true. We have a choice of whether we want to go to rec. or not. I've not seen a guard jack a rec. in a long time. Some people just choose to not go. Now, they have taken showers before, but not to just take it...it is because they have a no "traffic and trading policy" meaning, that if I'm in the day room and I get caught by the guards trying to pass a book or some food to another inmate, I can get a disciplinary write up. It is a crap rule, but it is a rule. It is a serious enough infraction by their own definition that it could have you placed on F-pod...so, the guards make deals to cut their work load. Do you want a case or your shower? Most guys say "Take my shower" because we do have sinks and can bathe in our cells. It isn't as nice as a shower and I'm not saying it is fair or right even, but it does beat spending three months down on F-pod and having restricted privileges (commissary/visits). But only the real lazy guards do that crap. Most guards understand it is a necessity and keeps aggression down when we can share/have a sense of community back here.
Here in a short while I'll be headed to rec. I think the guard said 3rd round. So that'll be sometime around noon or after lunch. So, I'm going to wrap this up. I'm still tyring to get into the groove of writing regulary (a work in progress) and hopefully I can write a little something each day. We'll see. Until then...